[sixteen]☆Nothing can dim your light.

♪ Currently Listening to Neon Sky by Wolftron

☆ Inspiration of the Day. 2 and a half more weeks.

"what does it take to find peace in the night and safely wake up new?
I'm waging war against myself and the moon in lieu of loving you
lately this world is calm
i'll try my best to live through this night"
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It’s been awhile since a real post. Sorry I haven’t really blogged. There was just stuff that happened that shouldn’t be blogged or isn’t worth blogging. These past couple days have been really mellow. Same old work and taking care of grandma business. I need something new in my life. There’s actually not much to say about today, but I can’t sleep.

"I've spent my time running from state lines and life
I'm always out of place
if you were around the sun would melt in the sky
and paint through shades of gray"
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So two days ago, considering that it’s almost one right now, I talked to Karen. Her birthday party’s coming up soon. (: Sweet sixteen. Wow it’s going to be amazing. I wonder what my sweet sixteen will be like. Probably same old, no party, no presents. I want to go out to dinner or something. Oh well. I’m making her invites…soon. I gotta start on that, hehe. We talked about the plans for the party and it ended up going to Asian dramas. Seriously, I love watching them. Especially the weepers. They touch me. My most favorite ones would be the ones with the sick girl that dies in the end. I bawl. No kidding. Oh dear, I’m rambling now

"you're still my neon sky
nothing can dim your light
I've spent so many years running only to find loneliness and twilight
only you are my neon sky, neon sky"
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So somehow we planned to watch the sunrise together, yesterday morning. 5:59 was the time for the sunrise. I called Karen at 5:20, 5:30 and 6:00. Turns out she was sleeping so I went off by myself. The sunrise was kind of a bummer. It was super cloudy and chilly. You couldn’t see the sun really until about 6:40. But I took some pictures and it was a really nice place to ponder. Seriously, watching the sunrise makes me realize how big this world is and the endless amount of sunrises and how the sun is so full of life. How no one person would ever be able to dim it’s light. It made me realize that I only have a limited number of sunrises that I can see, Only a limited number of years to live my life to the fullest. So I’m not going to let anything bring me down anymore. I want to die thinking, ‘Wow, That was fun, I’m tired.”

There’s this one spot that I love to watch the sun rise. It’s on the highest hill facing towards Almaden Lake Park on a big rock. The one that’s right in front of my house. I really want to take someone up there with me, to be my neon sky even when the the day is so cloudy that you can’t see the sunrise. Someone to brighten up my day :) It’s so amazing there, you’ll just have to see it. Well, the sunset is a bit more prettier. The sun is BRIGHT red but that’s because of pollution. Haha. Wow I’m such a loser. Waking up early just to watch the sunrise. Oh, this picture was taken at about 6:00. See Karen? It’s BRIGHT out. It’s not night!!! Yet there’s still no sun. Truthfully, I think that I was the only one there that early. The first person I saw came around 6:45. But I really don’t think someone’s going to climb up a hill just to kidnap me. Well, I hope not because I want to do this a lot more now.

The sun took a REALLY long time for it to actually show. I swear I was up there for like an hour. But it was worth it. :)

-6:20- -6:30- -7:00-

Well, after that I got ready for work. Anddd turns out I had to stay home and take care of granny. Sorry Shannon. I ended up making my sister a tuna melt after she insisted I make it while whipping me with one of my bras. Imagine that. Haha. Then I took a nap on the couch next to granny. What great sitter right? Haha. I didn’t wake up until about 8.

So my sister and I have been watching Harry Potter movies every night. Tonight was the 3rd night. So Prisoner of Azkaban. I really noticed how old they got from the 2nd to 3rd. I really can’t wait till the next one comes out. :) what a loser right?

"you're still my neon sky
nothing can dim your light
I've spent so many years running only to find loneliness and twilight
only you are my neon sky, neon sky"
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It’s been one week. Hopefully the next 2 and a half won’t be as bad as this one. :( I miss you!

Mhmm well, I don’t really have much to say anymore. I’ve got work tomorrow for sure, and then maybe Kevin’s to bake cookies or something. Haha. welps see you later. – wendychann♪